SLeepYYYY

It’s Friday today, and the clock tick EXTREMELY slow today.  |-). My eyes is gonna shut by itself anytime soon. I’m SUPER SLEEPY today!! Yesterday I stayed up till 2am watching DVD, entitle “Dead or Alive”. Which practically left me in the state too. In the world of In-Between.  I’m soooo tempted to lock myself in my office WC aka Toilet to take a short nap. But not so nice lor… people might think i’m suffering from  SERIOUS constipation problem!

Tick Tock Tick Tock…the clocks now read 11.49 am….tick tock ticky ticky tock…7 hours to go before I can shout AMEN!!!  

Hahahahaha…. 

Up to you

You will never solve your problems by getting other people to change. The way to

move beyond whatever is holding you back is to make positive changes within yourself.

The problem is not the particular situation you are in. The problem is the way you interpret and relate to that situation.

The problem is not the way you are treated by others. The problem is the way you allow the actions of others to affect you.

The problem is not what has happened in the past. The problem is that you’re letting it continue to hold you back.

Take complete responsibility for a problem, and suddenly you are ninety percent of the distance toward solving it. For when you truly take responsibility, you gain real and powerful control.

Fully accept that it is up to you to get where you choose to go. And you’ll find everything necessary to make it so.

— Ralph Marston

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I found this great webbie, that I would like to share with you. Great motivational passages that I can’t help but to ponder upon.

http://greatday.com/

Have fun reading! 🙂

worries…

I recently closed a long waited project, but somehow,  I’m not even comfortable or happy about it. I have worries on how my company is going to fullfill this new project requirements and success deliverable when we, internally has problems. This year has been a year of resignations for my company, we nearly had farewell dinner every month since January 2007, and 2 more farewellz in the coming month. sighzzz

The movement is not the main issue. It’s about trust. It’s hard for me to trust and have confident in the new technical management. I know this is nothing I can do, and worrying will be pointless. But having seen the issues internally, I’ve lost the motivation to push forward. It’s hard for me to convince others or drive for new project, with the problems “sitting” and “expanding” internally.

I have sleepless nights, and I also know there’s no point worrying and should just do my job and “Bochup”! Yeah, to tell the truth, throwing the letter seems to be the easiest way out. But I’m not sure if this is the right thing to do or is it the right time.

I just need some encouragement and moral support for the time being. I’m not a Superwoman, I feel like I’m gonna breakdown anytime soon. I’ve shed tears and shared fears.

Yesterday, a dear friend of mine reminder me on the things I shared regarding this job about a year ago. On How I was hired, the initial struggles with the previous management, the assurance I have from the Book of Joshua, later on the increment, confirmation and etc. A reminder on God’s faithfulness throughout this journey, and to know that He is in control. Right now, all I can do is to cling on His strength and promises and know that He will not fail me, He will carry me through this stormy sea. To know that people fails, God doesn’t. Our burdens may be heavy, but through Him, it’s lighter than you think.

Pressing on Toward the Goal

    ¹²Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.

¹³Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,
¹⁴I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
 

(Phillippians 3:12-14)

Birthday Pics!

Quater Century Year’s Old

Yeap…today I am officially a quater century year’s old woman and i better start acting like one. hahaha

Thanks for all the wishes my friends…actually birthday is a great date to know who actually remembers and thinks of you eh? 😛

Gosh, this is a little bit scary… girls have lesser “youthful” period ok?! so, bear with my whinning! Seriously, time really flies! i still remember how i celebrated my 16th birthday! My prayer right now…”God, can you please tick the clock a little bit slower?”  😛

Many people asked how am I gonna  celebrate the day….hmmm…frankly, I need to get some beauty sleep. hahaha…I’m just gonna spend my day with my mother. After all, she is the one I should be thankful for giving birth to me… :). Thanks mummy. 

There are some things I would like to achieved before I hit thirty.

1) Climb Mt. Kinabalu

2) White Water Rafting

3) Diving

4) Backpack to Cambodia and Vietnam

5) To start a family?? hahaha (God Knows la)

ok..i gotta go now. Blowing my first cake in my office. 🙂

Zombie…

My system is already in hibernate mode as i’m typing this blog. Gosh..i’m longing for my soft comfy bed right now. A nice shut eye and a trip to my slumberland will be an ideal now.

I hardly slept yesterday…or should i say, i hardly NEVER had a good night sleeps before. You see, i dream every night. Seriously…EVERY night, and i still can remember the dreams i dreamt before. and sometimes, i can’t differentiate some happenings happened in my dreams or while i was awake! Scary isn’t it?!

Now i’m walking like a zombie, talking like a zombie, working like a zombie, thinking like a zombie, almost looking like a zombie. Dunno what the heck i’m writing here, but sure proves that i’m a Zombie. 😛

no title…

Out of improtu decision, i bought a copy of “Blaze of Glory” from the Leng Chai DVDman. And I watched it there and then using my notebook whilst having dinner with a friend in Meng Tin Hawker Stall. The movie wasn’t a Shockonado, but watching while eating in Ming Tien is. 😛

Anyways…I just got a call from one of my gal-pal. You see, four of us gals refer each other as BEST FRIENDS, but we only met up together as a group ..say Thrice a year?!! The last time we ever saw each other was in 1st of January 2007. New Year  has been a  highlighted date for our reunion!  Gosh!! But our catch up session always ended as slumber party……it will be for hours. Wat to do? Catching up with a year of lives update!

tou sah piah..

I was sitting in my office room feeling sooo exhausted and tired from travelling and meetings I had in a day. here i am, trying hard to focus to finish some pending tasks piling up on my table. And as i was about to start work…..my handphone rang. One of my colleague who is currently in Penang with my director for a day trip called…

Ange: Yes, Cheng

Cheng: Eh..are you in the office?

Ange: Ya

Cheng:  Are you busy? You free to talk? (serious tone..). (my mind was wandering at the moment. trying to anticipate the urgency from the tone of his voice.)

Ange: I’m ok la…can talk. wassup? (curious curious)

Cheng: You know that I’m in Penang with Dermond right?

Ange: Ya….

Cheng: we’re now in penang marketplace. you know the place that sells those biscuit and all?…

Ange: Ya…. (lagi curious)

Cheng: What do you guys want to eat ar? Dermond is buying

*Aduh! i thought what the urgency was all about!! …

Ange: Hahaha…just buy Tou Sah Piah la!

Cheng: Huh? Tao Sah Piah only meh? So “Keh Ki” ar? (meaning modest in hokkien) Boss belanja you know…

Ange: Hahaha…err…just grab anything you think that looks good la, and better still, if you can get those non-fattening one. 😛

Cheng: Alamak….

* our nonsensical conversation continues..

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Now you guys know how i pile up those KGs? 🙂 Tou Sah Piah punya pasal la!  

shaky bon bon

i have 6 months time to fullfill my new year resolution!! (as if i ever fullfilled it before!) hehe

i miss drenching myself with my own salty sweat!! i seriously have to get my butt up to start working out! i’m searching for some classes to join. i think i dun have any excuse for that. there’s a yoga and dance center just one floor below my office. and i’m still waiting for my colleagues to confirm and sign up together as a group to enjoy the group rate thingy.

meanwhile, i’m looking for other options!

i really love to try pole dancing! i mean minus the stripping part. 😛

i actually found one, but it is soooooo farrrrrr away…so second option, belly dancing 🙂 had already gather some girl-friends to come along and have some fun!

if i dun shape up within 3 months…slap me! 😛

sweet memories..